對艾球來說，美國生活除了學校之外，大概沒有任何一件事會比雪季來臨更重要了！
前兩天去了snow show。因為聽說有免費的lift ticket可以拿所以很高興的去了，可是幹了蠢事：一進場就有發的小冊子最後只要簽名就可以換的lift ticket沒有換到，因為艾求想說回家再看小冊子...orz
不過幸好是有收穫的！全場只剩下兩雙的kevin jones snow boots, size for 9.5 only had to pay for 29.99, no tax。哈!沒錯。艾球買了一雙！又是一件很蠢的事情！Kevin Jones每一雙價錢都在接近兩百上下，我應該兩雙都買的！用不到那一雙可以寄給Eason或者是賣掉，都超值得的。蠢爆了！
一樣的灰色天空，一樣的圍牆；一樣的摩托車，一樣的顏色，剛下過雨的地板就連潮濕的樣子都跟我記憶裡的每一個畫面一模一樣。
看到那些，應該是你特別寫給我的說明跟字，我真的快哭了。我發現我不應該開你的相簿，在考試前的一個小時。你一定會說我阿呆，甚至很用力的拍我的肩膀，因為我用考前一個小時的時間，來寫這些只屬於我們兩個的信。
紅色空心磚疊起來的小圍牆很漂亮，你用甚麼把它們黏起來了嗎？不會被小哈弄倒？還是說物是人非，小哈已經離開了呢？地板上那條溝縫還在，茂盛的地衣植披真的相當囂張。我看著那些玫瑰還有野薑，眼眶居然會有點紅潤。
想起來，我好久沒回去了。兩年以上了吧？過去三年來，我比總是離家很遠的你，走得更遠，當兵一年有餘，回家半年後立刻揚帆遠颺的我，總是以為我很強硬，強硬的不會寂寞，可以不為外物所動，可以走在自己的堅持上面；但很可惜，我似乎失敗了。就像西瓜寫給我的那封信一樣，我用生活填滿我的生活，但總在每一件事情銜接的時候，不小心讓思緒溜過一萬兩千公里的距離，看著屬於我們的那塊地圖沉澱。你說將來要跟青椒一起住的辣椒，是說我吧？就像我自己知道的一樣，我的個性跟辣椒一樣，辛辣直接，你卻多了很多圓融。那張青椒苗跟辣椒苗子的合照就是第一個觸動我淚腺的導火線。我沒哭，只是沒有能力再回到那些程式碼裡面而已。
很重要！
就像大家都知道的美國，一直都是一個有種族歧視警察隨時都會開槍的國家。然後沒有人可以保證自己不會被警察攔下來臨檢...。再不然就是在紐約或芝加哥各大城市都有可能被搶，當那些搶匪拿槍對著你你又不敢反抗的時候...，人家絕對不會因為你聽不懂英文就放過你...。比如說，當搶匪叫你把錢交出來(give/show me your money), 你卻只給他幾分錢(當她是流浪漢)或者是把鈔票給他看馬上就收起來，那人家應該會一刀捅死你吧XDDD
這是我昨天看了美國電視節目COPS差點笑死之後的感想。
首先是跪下，這很常見：
on your knee
She said: It didn't mean not longer if we said there had no forever; and I might not be your best one, but I loved you only.
I was not sure what was she trying to say actually. Separated these two, I saw nothing; merged both two, I saw nothing also. I thought, she didn't use her brain for thinking like what I always said. Not forever, not eternity, didn't mean not longer? So, what was the longer in the life named LOVE? The memories? Or something else? If the important thing was recollection, why she always said she wanted to stay with me and hurt herself, changed herself often? That was not even a good way she choose I thought.
For me only, the love, I could present it in so many ways. To hang out, to be the friends, the kiss only, communication only, watching only, and some other way to do. In the love, I was going to change myself to befit her, not tried to change her to befit me. I thought that was the main point of different between I and her also; I meant, I didn't such need her like she need me, I didn't love her deeply like she did. Or might be not, she might love me for only her fantasy. Obviously, I was not even a prince, ordinary like myself, just a person who you could meet at anywhere.
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